I realize to start one thing I often have to stop something else. The struggle is figuring out what to stop so that I can start. I am in a state of confusion when I get to the crossroads. I sit at the edge and wonder if I should jump or wait to be pushed.
Altogether everything inside of me is excited to begin something new. I am excited to go on this adventure with you. I am delighted to know that I am in a new place to grow. Nothing here is familiar to me. In an instant, I seem to have left self-doubt and I have seemed to be accepted into the crowds I use to being kept out.
In an instant, I let go of insecurities and fears. I boldly go to where I know people will hear. My heart flutters at the sound of others meeting me here, meeting me to see what it is that I want to share.
Thump thump thump goes my heart as if someone is pounding on a shopping cart. Not to fast, don’t confuse this for friends. This has happened before where you got hurt at the end. Into isolation, I begin to creep as the lies from my past continue to repeat.
Is this the beginning or is the end?
Until next time I guess we will see what is going to be will be.
Lots of love,