I am just recovering from a season in my life that took me to some dark places. Unfortunately, it was not too long ago.
I complained a lot. I cried even more. I was argumentative. I responded with anger and pain.
I lost some people I valued in my life because of it. They lost respect for me and it changed their idea of who I am.
I lost my identity in the midst of these situations. I lost who God created me to be to conform to who the world wanted me to be. It was lonely. I lost my joy. I only felt pain. I sat with negative and destructive thoughts in my head daily.
Though I am involved with a lot of things, go a lot of places even speak with a lot of people there is a me that hides in the shadow.
I am not your superwoman, I am no hero, and I don’t even know how to survive.
In the redefining of who I am and what I believe I deserve there was a lesson to be learned.
What God taught me is
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.” Galatians 5:22-23 NIV
No law means human laws. The fruit of the Spirit isn’t something you get arrested for not having or win a price for having. They are governed by our free will and judged by the King of kings.
I have learned all things I need the fruit of His Holy Spirit to overflow in me. Not just one fruit but all of it. That is when I can live a life of progress in His process.
This thing called progress has me struggling often times but I give myself grace during the process. God is bigger than my temporary situation.