An earthquake of emotions hit my life a couple months ago. It caused a lot of damage. My heart broke open and lots of debris is exposed.
In the emergency clean up I realized I am not the woman I want to be. I struggle with so many different issues of my past that leave me challenged.
See the thing about this earthquake is if I paid attention to the signs I would have seen it coming. If I was present then I would have be able to prepare. Honestly I know I could not have prevented the earthquake. However, I believe that I could have put things in safe places to not have so much damage.
This reminds me of so many other situations in my life. I didn’t allow myself to be present because of past hurts. I hate to say this but the truth is that I was barely surviving in my life. Though it looked as though I was thriving.
So why not continue to survive?! Well it’s not safe for me anymore because I was always looking over my shoulder for another hurt, pain, betrayal, or trauma to happen in life.
It’s the first Saturday of 2019 and I want to thrive. It’s not time for resolutions because often they don’t last. I am making a proclamation. Moving forward I am going to put myself first. I am going to love and take care of myself the way I know God would want me to and the way I want others to love me.
Good bye self sabotage. Good bye self pity. Good bye safe mode.
Here comes boundaries. Here comes some quiet time. Here comes some peace, joy, and happiness.
It requires work but I will commit to myself to this transformation. I am going to write my way into the freedom I deserve.
Come with me on this path and embrace the journey.
Lots of Love,