I sit in my office and wonder to myself how to bring balance into my life. How to let things go from my past and how to bring myself completely present.
It’s a challenge for me to get from one step to another sometimes. I ache with thoughts of false expectations and overwhelming disappointment. My mind spins in circles as I navigate where to place my foot.
The agony of the unknown and the required trust of the unfaithful I find myself tormented daily by my inner self. I often want to launch myself from any building taller than five stories or wanting to drink myself into a numbing never recovering state of mind.
What’s wrong with me? I wrestle with this at least four to five times a day. How can I be different? This is a fight I often loose.
What step do I take after the wrong step? How can I trust where I put my feet. It’s so freaking frustrating. I can’t believe life feels so unmanageable.
Well I have to go. Until next time let Progress be your guide.
Lots of love,