In the midst of my pain I meet anger, I meet sadness and I meet disappointment.
They all fight for my attention and it’s a battle I am loosing. Every conversation brings me closer to my breaking point. Every rejection makes my self worth drop to another level of hell.
I can’t see clearly. I can’t interpret anything with a logical understanding. My emotions are running my life. I don’t know how to regain control. My heart continues to break over and over again.
The healing begins and then the pain seeps in again. I experience so much grief and feel like I am suffocating.
My existence no longer matters. My emotions have dominated who I am. I am a pile of mess that isn’t appealing to anyone not even myself.