Tears of fear.

Every day I am crippled by fear. I sit in it and build foundations on it. I worry over them, I let them dictate my emotional state. My fear controls my behavior and my thoughts.

The fear of becoming someone I am not proud of.

The fear of not achieving what I set out to do.

The fear of not being seen.

The fear of not being heard.

The fear of the unseen possibilities.

In the moments fear has bound me up and spoken it’s lies to me I creep into a coma of insecurity. I am like a zombie stuck between life and death.

I call out to God – “God can you hear me!”

Though my cries are heard by God I have yet slipped into a place that keeps me from hearing his reply. This is the devil’s breading ground. The lies begin, the fears become a false reality, the shame and guilt pile up, and I feel like God doesn’t care.

My saving grace is that God never left me. My cries have to get quiet enough to be till enough to hear God speak back. Silence – that’s hard. Telling all the thoughts to stop and submit to the voice of God.

That’s where I am all in my fears trying to quiet them long enough to hear God’s voice.

How about you? Do you have some fears you need to let go of? Do you have some guilt and shame that you just can’t let go of?

Come to the feet of Jesus. Listen for His gentle voice speak love to you. Watch for His grace and mercy bring into His arms. Feel the love of Father God invade your heart and lavish His love upon you in a new way.

Is this challenging and often feel unattainable? Absolutely! However, it is not impossible. God is with you, fighting for you, and loving you through everything you encounter.

I would love to hear from you so please seek God, listen to His word, get into community with people who have a love for God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. Watch your life transform.

Until next time be encouraged. Keep your head to the sky and know where your true help comes from.

With love,

Krys Grant-Ray