Today I felt so many different emotions. I got irritated, I got frustrated, I got angry, I got aggressive and at the pit of my being I got self righteous.
I started a new level of therapy today-Yes, I am a life coach and also in therapy. It’s needed to continue to transform. Anyway I digress.
As I felt all these things and reacted to them I felt my blood boil. The hairs on the back of my neck begin to move. I began to hear all the demons in my mind tell me how I haven’t changed and I am still the same Krys.
I realized quickly anxiety setting in and I removed myself from the situations. I sat in an office with a coworker while I decided to decompress and let the situation go.
I was at a crossroad. I could allow all my emotions to completely consume me and devour my day in the most toxic way possible or I could breathe and let it go.
I was challenged in those moments. I was challenged by the desire of my flesh to be all in my emotions and battling with my spirit that those emotions aren’t serving me. It was easier for me to chose the emotions which made it clear that I needed my spirit to come in and intervene.
What lesson to learn? What a position to be in? Internal opposition. The battle of truth verse lies. The dark trying to be brighter than the light. Not today!
I was victorious it took me half hour to get there but I did arrive. I am proud of myself because I was humbled by the situation. I was forced to see things in a different light and while all in my feelings and letting my flesh run the show I was captured. I was the victim.
Does this story resonate with you?
How many times do you find yourself the victim of yourself verses victorious for yourself?
What do you do to decompress from a situation that began to get the best of you?
When it happens again what will you do differently?
It’s all good either way. Just sit back after the next emotional breakdown and think
Is this the way you want to be remembered?
What could I have done better?
Why did I let this get to me so much?
All these questions help you transform your mind. Help you dig deeper into self awareness.
If our present is an accumulation of our past I ask you what are you accumulating?
Peace and love until next time.