It’s been about six months since my life turned upside down and inside out. Things I thought were getting better seemed to actually be worse. I discounted every opportunity to make situations better because they had gotten so challenging. Do you know what I mean?
Have you ever had something shake your reality at the core? Have you had to take a deep look at yourself and try to find where you lost yourself? Have you ever got hitten so hard in your heart that you thought it would stop?
Maybe it’s just me. Maybe I am the only one that has had life beat me down and make me feel defeated. I discounted my purpose. I dimmed my light. I hid behind others dreams, goals, and aspirations with the hopes of not being seen.
Yes, this is true. I told myself that it was better for others to excel than for me. My efforts to help them excel was me excelling. I didn’t have to try too hard. I used all my gifts for others and they got the benefits of it daily. I would lay in my bed every night strategizing the next come up for someone else. I dreamt about the next win for them. I had successfully allowed myself to believe that my dreams desires were unrealistic and not worthy of anyone’s time.
Flashback to six months ago, I had an ah-ha moment. My reality and the truth hit me like a ton of bricks. I cannot continue to live my life in this tunnel of discounting who I am. I began praying differently. It’s time to claim that God’s best hasn’t been discontinued. I did, however, have to discontinue my thought process. I had to give up thinking that God discounted me when I was created. I had to and if I am honest I still have to remind myself that God can help me discontinue the negative self-talk, the low self-esteem, the lies, fear, and incorrect vision of myself. I have to believe a different story for myself.
I may not deserve what others have, but I absolutely deserve what God has for me. My life may have shattered into a million pieces, my life may not look the way I want it to, but I am working on myself. I find joy in the progress I am making.
I invite you to do so introspective inventory. Be honest and open with yourself. How are you setting yourself free from your discounted belief to have a future that was never meant to be discontinued?
Look forward to hearing from you.
Love you lots,
Krys Grant-Ray
Krys Grant-Ray 