I have been in reflection mode all day particularly because I kick my week off with church and then Monday mornings I head to therapy before work.
I realize for myself that God is about order. The order in which I engage my week makes a difference to God. This brought me to the most profound moment in my day which was how you start something is how you have to finish.
A little under 90 days ago I began a challenge of seeking God’s glory in my life. I was in an extremely bad state mentally and emotionally. My life was spinning out of control. I surrendered some things after receiving a text that forever changed my life with God and people.
God told me mask off. What a request during that time?! In my obedience I committed to not thinking the worst for 90 days. I committed to being vulnerable and authentic with people. I chose God’s way instead of my own way.
With day 90 drawing near I feel the devil pressing his weight on me. I feel the pressure to give up this choice I feel Satan trying to show me things that I know may be true but God told me He has me. God told me let it go. God told me I have better things for you than this world.
I have to say Not today Satan. Not tomorrow. Not ever Satan.
I realize that the 90 days wasn’t just about me finding God’s glory in my life but also His ever lasting power that lives in me and operates through me. Surrender is difficult. Trusting God was even harder. I had to die to myself daily, sometimes hourly, but mostly minute to minute.
My order of putting God before my situation, before my thoughts and expectations for the day, before my desires, before what I thought I deserved – I searched for God. I knocked on the door of His heart and He always answered. I didn’t take God’s correction as offense. I didn’t let people’s rejection block my blessing and I couldn’t stop because I began to find Him everywhere.
See I prayed, I allowed myself to be still, I listened, and I watched. That is where I found God’s love that is specially designed for me.
Truth is my story isn’t unique. I am not any more special to God than you. I promise you the blessing of having a personal relationship with God saved my life. He sent Jesus so you can have the same relationship.
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