Day 45

Good morning journey companion,

I am seriously in awe of God and the work He is doing in me and through me. This past year my life got flipped upside down and insight out. Things weren’t as they appeared.

I was living in these cracks of my life with fear, anxiety, and so much rejection that I needed God’s intervention. I needed a breakthrough. I prayed and prayed God show me, God help me, God do you hear me, do you see me God. Reveal Yourself to me.

I cried out to God about not feeling like I was seen, for not feeling appreciated, I didn’t receive the same love I gave. My heart was broken. The lies that lived in my mind and heart were that I was unlovable and that I didn’t deserve the same love as others.

Did I say my heart was broken… well I was broken. I thought I was walking in freedom in areas of my life and then tragedy stroke and I realized quickly how much bound I was to this world and it’s plot for death to a Christian soul.

A year ago today I was beginning to have an emotional and mental breakdown and didn’t even know it.

Fast forward to today – I have survived an emotional and mental breakdown. My relationship with God is so much stronger and the freedom I am experiencing in my life is beyond any work I could have done in my own strength.

I share this story because yes I committed to praying for 40 days in community but before this I committed that I won’t let my circumstances dictate my position with God, community, or career. I can feel my life beginning to soar. I can feel me rising like a phenix from the ashes of death and taking flight. In my own strength I broke down. In God’s strength through my relationships with Him I had a break through.

My prayer for you this morning is extremely simple. Desire the lord your God with all Your heart. Trust that He knows every plan you desire as much as His plan for you to have an abundant life.

I pray that you cling to God and watch Him cling to you. I pray that you faith, hope, and trust exceed fear, doubt, anxiety, insecurities and whatever else you battle with.

I pray God takes you into His secret places. I pray you receive the gifts of God’s presence in your life. I pray that you aren’t in the room of comparison and walk into the room of God’s fulfillment.

May your heart be running over with love from God that you don’t have to look to the world for it. Remember companion that God prepared a place special for you to thrive and flourish with Him. I pray you don’t do this life alone. I pray that you grab a hand of someone God has given you and you go boldly where you would never choose on your own but let God guide you.

I pray that where you end you find God beginning a new work. I pray that there is a freedom in your life that set your soul on fire that challenges your mind to see things differently and it changes your heart posture to God’s.

I pray for you continually. I pray for God to use you in a mighty way. I pray for your family that has already seen earth and those yet to come. I pray you allow God to use you as a beacon of hope, love, truth, and compassion. I pray that you embrace the identity that God have you specifically and very intentionally.

I pray you walk in this newest of knowing God as your father, your friend, your guide, your keeper of secrets, your advocate, your doctor, and the list goes on because God goes on.

I pray for God’s character to become your character. I pray that you are captivated by God in such a way that you will always be able to trace your success in everything back to the time you trusted God more than yourself.

I pray this in the mighty name of Jesus amen.