Day 50

Good morning journey companion,

Yesterday God convicted me about how I have been reacting to situations at work. I have been given an opportunity to really be an asset to my job it’s honestly a gift.

I recently let other people’s feelings about how I do my job stop me from doing what I know I was called to do. I began grumbling and moaning about petty things I prayed about it and realized I God is also working some stuff out for other people at work.

I sat at my desk with a heavy heart because I was expecting people to behave one way when they aren’t me so they wouldn’t. God showed me that the differences are what make my job special. Validation is real – we all need it. Where we get it is truly the most important.

I am quickly approaching a year at this job and I have filled so many gaps and stepped up so many times I secretly desired to have a thank you. The horrible part is the secret was a secret even to me on many levels. As God was giving me revelation about where I was He brought to light the little girl in me that needed so bad to be validated in something, anything so she knew she belonged.

I wasn’t aware that I was in desperate need of human validation. It really made me look at other areas of my life and ask God to search all of me to cleanup this mess.

I laid in my bed crying at the truth that I am still in bondage over some things. I am still like a restricted child that needs more love and attention to thrive. It honestly was a painful awakening. My heart posture became I must repent. God please forgive me. But also it became how do I not continue this pattern because it becomes self destructive.

Heavenly Father please help us stay focused on Your work and Your plan. Please remind us to only seek Your validation in situations.

Father God search us continually and remove the things that You didn’t place in us. God in our weakness You are our strength. Please lord forgive me for dishonoring the work You have begun. Please forgive me for valuing human validation more than Your validation. God please help me accept Your validation and be filled with peace in those moments.

Father God I pray for my journey companion also – as they are going about their day I pray they are lavished with Your validation and accept it as the best.

I pray Your mighty will in and around our lives in the glorious name of Jesus Christ amen.