In the Process

Found no hope in the process

Hope was snatched from me in the blink of an eye.  All I could remember extremely vividly is the doctor appointment I had – where I heard for the first time ever come out of someone’s mouth – you have stage 4 metastatic breast cancer, Invasive ductal cancer, positive for estrogen, negative progesterone and negative for Her2.  She delivered this news as if I were a robot without emotions.  

Even in the moments I was surprised, asked her to wait, even showed deep emotions she reminded me in such a non-verbal way that I was just a job to her.  My emotional state didn’t matter.  I expressed how difficult this news was to process in this way and after 30-60 seconds she disregarded my moment as if I was holding her up from the rest of her life.  

Whatever hope I had in those moments evaporated like water in 90 degrees.  

I didn’t really know what any of her words meant.  All I do know is that she wasn’t scheduling me for an immediate surgery and began speaking about a treatment plan.  No surgery, only a hormonal treatment for the rest of my life, which mind you she assured me I won’t have much of.  When she said I will die from this and gave me a timeline it wrecked me.  I was 40 years old!  It sucked.  

I kept thinking God what, why, how, when, do you hear this?  I felt like this was such a personal illness smashed with a death sentence.  I couldn’t breathe if I am honest the tears ran down my face faster than ever before in my life.

Thank you so much for your prayers, donations  and dedication to God’s vision.  Look forward to growing closer and setting a space of intentional God moments.  I am committed to leaning in and pressing forward no matter what the cost.  So excited for the journey to continue.

Published by Krys Grant-Ray

Hello, my name is Krys Grant-Ray and I am a Christian Transformational Life Coach. Yes, that is a mouth full, isn't it? I have used my coaching training and my relationship with God to switch focus from changing a thought or action to true transformation. My focus is helping you find the optimum space for authentic transformation from the inside out. Put a magnifying glass up to the mundane cycle of your life that you sucked out passion while you seek out what you want. Rediscover who you really are and what you were put on this earth to do. Let go of the daily grind we all get stuck in. I continually challenge you to think outside of the box you were taught in. Together we seek a better way to become the best version of who you are. I do this through an 8- step process of shifting focus, investing in what you believe in, building a foundation that supports consistent positive growth. Finally, you will learn how to grow in the restful periods of life and then know when to move on to the next step. This transformational process gets you out of comfort zone and into your thriving zone. It is a wonderful and creative place that you need to visit daily. Together you and I will map out your thoughts in a way that works specifically for you. Let’s open your world to clear and vivid images that you can put into words. From those words you will find authentic self-expression; ultimately discovering your uniqueness and experience geniune truth and beauty.

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