Though it was purposeful to go home to speak face to face with my family, it was also a realization that there will be many thoughts and desires on how to move forward.
I kept thinking about situations in the past that made me feel as though I was alone. I was hoping this time it would be different.
My prayer was God please help me with my faith and the relationships. I really needed the support of my family but was so use to be independent and the black sheep that I really needed my mentality to shift.
I needed to believe my son and I’d best interest would come into play and supersede any previous experiences.
I had space to process but my son felt neglected. Family dynamics are real especially when 3 generations are staying in one space.
All of my past experiences, feelings and memories flooded my mind. I couldn’t escape the doubt, fear and even moments of depression. I hated every minute.
How do you escape the reality that you aren’t even able to go 100 feet alone? I couldn’t!
Thank you so much for your prayers, donations and dedication to God’s vision. Look forward to growing closer and setting a space of intentional God moments. I am committed to leaning in and pressing forward no matter what the cost. So excited for the journey to continue.