As the background song plays ‘Where do broken hearts go’ by Whitney Houston. My heart is torn and into a million pieces. The lyrics jump out at me
“Where do broken hearts go? Can they find their way home…Back to the open arms…Of a love that’s waiting there?….And if somebody loves you…Won’t they always love you?”
I am acutely aware that this is a love song written for a man and woman but found those lyrics to be spot on for any type of love loss.
This weekend I got hit with an emotional Mack truck. I am in Thailand receiving treatment for this awful diagnosis and was also confronted with past emotional turmoil that began to burn at both ends for attention.
It’s almost midnight and I sit here with so many thoughts running through my mind. They are all so common for me and familiar I just don’t want to have them connected to me any more. I call out to God because let’s face it the loneliness time of the day is when you are alone and all the contacts in your phone are just not available for you… it’s lonely mentally to navigate. It’s emotionally a struggle to make sense of what is going on and it’s physically heavy. The good news is that God hears the cry. He places people, phrases, songs and His word in position to remind that alone is just a state of being for a moment.
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. Psalm 23:1-3
He says in His word He will lead me and refresh my soul so today I before I lay my head down I pray for a refreshed soul, mind, body and spirit. Whatever and where ever I am out of spiritual alignment with God I pray He help me work it out and quickly.
Broken hearts take time to mend but God is the greatest physician and I trust Him with my EVERYTHING.
Krys Grant-Ray 