So for the past several of years I have been struggling with identity issues. I couldn’t tell you who I was or wasn’t because I had the reel of other’s story of me playing as a soundtrack in my head.
Shortly before the pandemic I realized for certain who I wasn’t and in that realization it caused my marriage to fall completely a part with no hopes of repair. It caused me to need therapy, spiritual counseling and ultimately lead to me having Stage 4 Breast Cancer.
The internal struggle I encountered was mental, spiritual and emotional. You wouldn’t know by looking at me that I was going through the hardest times in my life over the past 5 years but I was.
Last night I was confronted with the reality that no matter how much I embrace who I am and the strides I have made to become confident in who God created me to be that I will make others uncomfortable. It’s a painful reality actually. I live my life to come in alignment with who God says I am, how He wants me to live my life and His direction. My submission to this design is something that has kept me safe, filled with peace and a joy I can never explain. It ultimately saves my life on a daily basis.
You don’t have to know me or my story to see that God loves me. It’s written on my smile, it’s covered in my words, it wraps you when we embrace and above all it transforms those who seek Him when we are in each other’s presence.
I am the essence of God, my Father-Creator-The lover of my soul, my story and will never stop seeking His validation more than anyone else as long as I live. This my friends is what it means to be a living sacrifice for God.
Today I pray that as you navigate the challenges your life brings that you understand that nothing lasts for ever besides God. This body we live in will decay, the riches and fame you obtain will not be able to go with you, your legacy is your character, your impact and how you allowed God to use you while you were here.
I love you more than words. Can’t wait to see how God moves in your life because it’s blows my mind how He moves in mine.
Krys Grant-Ray 