It’s been a while since I have written something. I came home from Thailand and my life was really topsy turvy with no magical wand, no genie’s lamp, no fair godmother’s song or a potion I could drink to change the reality that I am a living being and that means at some point I will not be living.
This became more of a reality the past week. God has continually reminded me that His plan is the best plan. I could be creative and play with life in a sense of being strategic and pay attention to what my opponent is doing so I know how to continue to be victorious.
What a conversation to have with God. In a season the last thing I want to do is think about playing a game I am reminded that my opponent (the devil) is always strategizing who to defeat me even when I don’t want to play. It’s like that annoying little kid down the block that taps you and says ‘tag you’re it’.. even when you weren’t even playing.
I have been making daily decorations and decrees to my body and standing firm. It’s God’s will, my believe and behavior that will transform even if the cancer doesn’t leave and it’s my time to go I believe that my time here as been anointed and lead by the Holy Spirit. I find gratitude in that. God has been extremely generous to me with time, friends, family, places to live and food to eat.
I have seen a lot of things in my 41 years of living and I have had the honor being loved, loving others , being married and best of all being a mother to one of the most wonderful humans I ever met.
Today my game is gratitude… when I am grateful I am unable to stay in fear, anxiety, and disappointment. Thank you all so much for the lessons. I am so grateful for God being personified in my life.
Krys, you always amaze me with the amount of faith you have. I’m praying for you and your son. I don’t understand prayer being answered because it’s Gods will when it seems He isn’t listening. I love you so much and miss you. I have made it to sober for a few weeks but I know I could relapse any time. Thank you for your prayers for my sobriety.
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