This week I woke up to a wet bed. I had just fallen asleep and everything was dry. Was it possible that I was bleeding and soaked my bed – I thought I was losing fluids and dying. Literally all the thoughts flooded my brain.
I hurried out of my bed only to find rain in my bed and flooding on my bedroom floor.
There is a song by Tony Toni Tone ‘it doesn’t rain in Southern California’ – well they weren’t telling the truth 😔😭 it does. And it has been for days on end here. Now it has visited my room personally.
These past couple of weeks I found out that my diagnosis changed. I realize that it means different treatment plans and new experiences on the journey.
So I had a good cry this morning which was easy to hide around my roof leaking but the truth is that I am hyper aware that the changes in my body, spirit and mind are creating a spiritual and physical battle in my life.
This experience quickly reminded me of mortality and the fragility of the human condition. The thoughts that plague my mind are usually joyous and peaceful thoughts.
Today I also thought about how much being ill sucks and there are no words to comfort the ailing heart when comforted with trauma, grief and a deep pain.
I know who my God is and who He says I am so I worry and fear not. I am also a human being and experiencing all this life has to offer.
Well I am off to try to salvage some of the physical pieces of my life. Please continue to pray with me and for me.
Peace love and joyous moments 💜
Like this:
Like Loading...
Related
Published by Krys Grant-Ray
Hello, my name is Krys Grant-Ray and I am a Christian Transformational Life Coach. Yes, that is a mouth full, isn't it?
I have used my coaching training and my relationship with God to switch focus from changing a thought or action to true transformation. My focus is helping you find the optimum space for authentic transformation from the inside out.
Put a magnifying glass up to the mundane cycle of your life that you sucked out passion while you seek out what you want. Rediscover who you really are and what you were put on this earth to do. Let go of the daily grind we all get stuck in.
I continually challenge you to think outside of the box you were taught in. Together we seek a better way to become the best version of who you are. I do this through an 8- step process of shifting focus, investing in what you believe in, building a foundation that supports consistent positive growth. Finally, you will learn how to grow in the restful periods of life and then know when to move on to the next step.
This transformational process gets you out of comfort zone and into your thriving zone. It is a wonderful and creative place that you need to visit daily. Together you and I will map out your thoughts in a way that works specifically for you.
Let’s open your world to clear and vivid images that you can put into words. From those words you will find authentic self-expression; ultimately discovering your uniqueness and experience geniune truth and beauty.
View more posts
Krys Grant-Ray 