Every time I look at my hand even when I don’t want to identify as a cancer patient I am reminded that I am due to a nurses neglect. Every 21 days I go into the infusion center and a nurse is to find a vein and insert a needle that will be the vesselContinue reading “The leak kills”
Author Archives: Krys Grant-Ray
Hair today Gone tomorrow
You may not know this about me but 15 years ago I had a shaved head. I was experiencing a lot of stress in life and my hair was falling out every time I combed it that I needed to let it go. I was in a relationship at the time and it challenged whatContinue reading “Hair today Gone tomorrow”
Pressure, like a drip, drip, drip that I can’t wait to stop
Wednesday I got another drip and it took me out within 24 hours. It was pretty remarkable. I lost my sense of taste, my ability to stand up and stay awake. My work spun around and around. I smelled like these drugs for days, my mouth was dry and I crawled to the bathroom. TheContinue reading “Pressure, like a drip, drip, drip that I can’t wait to stop”
Please light my way
This morning I was struggled getting out of bed with yet another side effect of this chemo going through my body. I search for the joy in my heart because my body is saying something different. The more I search the tears pour down my face. My body is shedding weight, my skin is beginningContinue reading “Please light my way”
God keeps Hope Alive
Recently I worked with my son on his school project on the holocaust. I am not going to lie, it was extremely frustrating because his generation is so far removed from this type of crime against humanity. They only hear stories when they actually want to listen. I kept trying to explain points of compassionContinue reading “God keeps Hope Alive”
Ash Wednesday
Ok..so Ash Wednesday came and went…I didn’t see my catholic friends with the smudge on their forehead because I have been house bound and I lost track of time. For those of you who don’t know what Ash Wednesday is… starts Lent(40 days of fasting and prayer) by focusing the Christian’s heart on repentance andContinue reading “Ash Wednesday”
the day the monster appeared
I woke up this morning and spent some quiet time with God. I am experiencing some pain in a tooth extraction site that I absolutely thought was going to be healed already. I was praying and asking God ‘what’s going on why am I here’. The more I sat with God the more I gotContinue reading “the day the monster appeared”
And the beat goes on
I sat in a doctors office last year on February 11, 2022 as she comfortably handed me a deadly diagnosis attached to a short term death sentence. She ensured me that the longest I could live is possibly 2 years and the soonest I would leave this earth would be 6 months. So far sheContinue reading “And the beat goes on”
More to the drip
Today I went in for my 2nd round of chemo. It’s a lethal injection of chemicals to kill all the cancer – ironically enough it also kills the good cells in your body. I have lost my hair, taste and energy. 21 days hardly seem like enough time to recover from one round and jumpContinue reading “More to the drip”
Fill my cup – let it overflow
Tonight I sat with my studies, my classes and my prayer call and kept thinking ‘God my cup feels so empty.’ My my my this mind of mine seems to be like hollow hallways with not much going on. empty spaces echos bouncing around Sometimes we have to empty everything out so God can fillContinue reading “Fill my cup – let it overflow”
Krys Grant-Ray 