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Every time I look at my hand even when I don’t want to identify as a cancer patient I am reminded that I am due to a nurses neglect. Every 21 days I go into the infusion center and a nurse is to find a vein and insert a needle that will be the vesselContinue reading “The leak kills”

You may not know this about me but 15 years ago I had a shaved head. I was experiencing a lot of stress in life and my hair was falling out every time I combed it that I needed to let it go. I was in a relationship at the time and it challenged whatContinue reading “Hair today Gone tomorrow”

Wednesday I got another drip and it took me out within 24 hours. It was pretty remarkable. I lost my sense of taste, my ability to stand up and stay awake. My work spun around and around. I smelled like these drugs for days, my mouth was dry and I crawled to the bathroom. TheContinue reading “Pressure, like a drip, drip, drip that I can’t wait to stop”

This morning I was struggled getting out of bed with yet another side effect of this chemo going through my body. I search for the joy in my heart because my body is saying something different. The more I search the tears pour down my face. My body is shedding weight, my skin is beginningContinue reading “Please light my way”

Recently I worked with my son on his school project on the holocaust.  I am not going to lie, it was extremely frustrating because his generation is so far removed from this type of crime against humanity.  They only hear stories when they actually want to listen.   I kept trying to explain points of compassionContinue reading “God keeps Hope Alive”

Ok..so Ash Wednesday came and went…I didn’t see my catholic friends with the smudge on their forehead because I have been house bound and I lost track of time. For those of you who don’t know what Ash Wednesday is… starts Lent(40 days of fasting and prayer) by focusing the Christian’s heart on repentance andContinue reading “Ash Wednesday”

Tonight I sat with my studies, my classes and my prayer call and kept thinking ‘God my cup feels so empty.’ My my my this mind of mine seems to be like hollow hallways with not much going on. empty spaces echos bouncing around Sometimes we have to empty everything out so God can fillContinue reading “Fill my cup – let it overflow”

I have made a commitment to myself to share my story publicly because God has blessed me so much privately. Each day I strive toward the mark I realize that when I put God first it doesn’t seem so hard. I want to encourage you to keep going.

I am sitting here planning my week and realizing that no matter where I go and what I do there are things that will be left undone. If I told you the emotional hell the past couple of days of my life have been you would not even be able to find words.   IContinue reading “I am not your super woman”