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As the background song plays ‘Where do broken hearts go’ by Whitney Houston. My heart is torn and into a million pieces. The lyrics jump out at me “Where do broken hearts go? Can they find their way home…Back to the open arms…Of a love that’s waiting there?….And if somebody loves you…Won’t they always loveContinue reading “Broken Hearted”

I am back in Bangkok after spending a weekend resting in Pattaya. I am super hopeful about this week of treatment. So I am grateful for week 1 because it held up a mirror to areas I need to work on. I will not give up, I will not back down, I was designed toContinue reading “Week 2 do what You Do!”

So last night Thailand time / middle of the morning LA time I wake up in a cold sweat. I felt so alone. Sat up on the pull-out sofa only to see a table of freshly made veggies and chicken with a bowl of soup left for me. I ate and scrolled the web forContinue reading “In a Thai minute”

So this morning I landed in Hong Kong… it was dark, the airport was empty and I really needed a charge on my devices … LITERALLY nothing was working. I was reminded to just BREATHE! All my planning didn’t prepare me for these moments. IN a new place, unfamiliar faces and spaces and a hugeContinue reading “Pause! Stop! Wait a minute!”

Though it was purposeful to go home to speak face to face with my family, it was also a realization that there will be many thoughts and desires on how to move forward.  I kept thinking about situations in the past that made me feel as though I was alone. I was hoping this timeContinue reading “Greatest escape artist”

I got discharged from the hospital and my friends came to get me. My mobility was horrible and I was beyond tired.  Reunited with my son after about 9 hours which felt like a lifetime. He helped me up our 2 floor walk up and before we got to the apartment I began throwing upContinue reading “We boarded and the adventure began. “

A dear friend of mine and husband took me to pick my son up from school. Literally as soon as I locked eyes with him I got a call from the doctor’s office that I need to check into the hospital because my blood tests came in and I required immediate attention.  Yikes… I didn’tContinue reading “The ER VISIT”

Found no hope in the process Hope was snatched from me in the blink of an eye.  All I could remember extremely vividly is the doctor appointment I had – where I heard for the first time ever come out of someone’s mouth – you have stage 4 metastatic breast cancer, Invasive ductal cancer, positiveContinue reading “In the Process”

I have always been super honest with my son… keeping secrets was never an option in our relationship.  So when I began not feeling well he expected me to have answers for him. On a daily basis my son worried about what was wrong with me, why was I unable to be fully present, whyContinue reading “His Mamma”