Four years ago I got fired from a job I gave everything to. I sacrificed my marriage, watching my son grow up, and even who I am. My efforts to build a business for someone who never ever valued what I am.
I flashed back to all my failures! The entrepreneur journey and as an employee seemed to pile up to not good enough for anything.
All of a sudden unqualified, defeated, and unworthy kept whispering into the fabric of who I am. Enraged by so many emotions I declared…
‘I would never be fired again by anyone!’
I was determined to be different but I really didn’t know how. I decided to go back to school and get a trade. So, I did want most people do and began to train to become a life coach.
Unlike most people, I wasn’t sure this was what I can actually do. I went through course after course while working a part time job. Stuck on the idea of one day breaking free from the 9-5 building other’s dreams bondage.
I struggled. All the insecurities I had seemed to rise to the top. I failed, I underperformed, and I was extremely frustrated. How was I going to change my life’s direction if I couldn’t even grasp simple concepts that even the most mundane people seem to get paid for?!
I allowed myself to be an employee because of my shortcomings. I was comfortable getting a guaranteed paycheck and feeling like I don’t have to always bring my ‘A game’.
The journey was torture to my soul. It was a daily battle to see my worth, what I bring to any situation, and to the lives of those I associate with.
Finally, it seemed like I got kicked out of comfort’s house once again by being fired from a coaching job I was so proud to get.
I kept staying in comfort zones, playing in comfort’s backyard, and eating comfort’s lies. Then it hit me…I have more power than I give myself credit for.
Last year I broke up with comfort. It is really difficult, because comfort always wants to remind me of the good times we had and how we can be great again.
However, progress is showing me a thrill of a lifetime. Nothing could be more unpredictable and unnerving while being exciting.
Progress has taught me that it can’t live in the same place comfort lives. I am grateful for the lessons you teach me progress and look forward to celebrating more with you.