Day 3 of 2019
Today has been more of a challenge than I could have imagined. I have taken time to do a life review as I spoke to my co-worker.
Life is so filled with mysterious lessons we need to learn. If we only process it through our lenses of today then we miss what happened yesterday and can happen tomorrow.
I have been blessed with opportunities to go back in my life and see why things today are the way they are. I see the root of the issues now that I couldn’t see were going to become an issue.
Last night my pastor preached on insight, hindsight, and foresight. The part that jolted me the most is that I too have prepared a message like that almost a year ago.
I sat in the majesty of who God is and who I am because He chose me. I often struggle to see wha God sees in me. I struggle with a lot actually. However, a few years ago when I was in an internship program I remember this same experience happen. Other people preaching or teaching messages God has revealed to me. I didn’t understand and often still don’t understand what God is doing.
I am grateful that God knows and it’s for the good of building the kingdom of God.
Anyway today I reflect on the beauty that is life even in the midst of my pain I am able to see everything has a purpose. I am able to see that even when I don’t understand I am taken care of and loved beyond measure.
With tears rolling down my cheek I am able to still boldly proclaim the victory in every situation. My head is held high and I rejoice in the midst of it all.
Lessons come as you may. Healing fill this broken vessel. Gentle and fierce is the order of my day as I say God have your way.
Well I am going to turn in for now but looking forward to chatting again.
Lots of love,