And the beat goes on

I sat in a doctors office last year on February 11, 2022 as she comfortably handed me a deadly diagnosis attached to a short term death sentence. She ensured me that the longest I could live is possibly 2 years and the soonest I would leave this earth would be 6 months. So far she was terribly incorrect about her educated conversation. For a moment I allowed her words to penetrate me.

They repeated and repeated on a loop time ticking by like a bomb I never pulled the pin out of. How do I put everything that I ever wanted to do into an itemized list and tackle? How do I fight a fight that I never signed up for?

Moment by moment I pray, I ask God to help me. I need to hear Him, I need to feel that I am ok. It’s by far the most difficult thing I have ever been tasked with. The pain that I endure day to day literally blows my mind. If it’s not physical then it’s emotional. If it’s not emotional then it’s mental if it’s not mental it’s financial. OMG the devil came hard to take me out.

As much as I don’t like to think of myself fighting cancer I realize I am a warrior and cancer is fighting me to stay inside. It’s fighting to have space in my life and the more I push it out the harder it comes…kind of like the annoying friend you just can’t get rid of.

All this to say – it’s been 365 days around the sun and no matter the medication, the feelings, the pains and the struggle I am still here.

Sometimes we listen to what others say because it has weight to bring us to our most powerful self. Today I thank the doctor for her misguided words and lack of empathy because it light a fire in me that I never thought I had.

Though I am sad at times due to the lack of control I find more pleasure in life than ever before.

Cheers to new beginnings. Love you more than you will ever know.

Published by Krys Grant-Ray

Hello, my name is Krys Grant-Ray and I am a Christian Transformational Life Coach. Yes, that is a mouth full, isn't it? I have used my coaching training and my relationship with God to switch focus from changing a thought or action to true transformation. My focus is helping you find the optimum space for authentic transformation from the inside out. Put a magnifying glass up to the mundane cycle of your life that you sucked out passion while you seek out what you want. Rediscover who you really are and what you were put on this earth to do. Let go of the daily grind we all get stuck in. I continually challenge you to think outside of the box you were taught in. Together we seek a better way to become the best version of who you are. I do this through an 8- step process of shifting focus, investing in what you believe in, building a foundation that supports consistent positive growth. Finally, you will learn how to grow in the restful periods of life and then know when to move on to the next step. This transformational process gets you out of comfort zone and into your thriving zone. It is a wonderful and creative place that you need to visit daily. Together you and I will map out your thoughts in a way that works specifically for you. Let’s open your world to clear and vivid images that you can put into words. From those words you will find authentic self-expression; ultimately discovering your uniqueness and experience geniune truth and beauty. View more posts